Growing up in a catholic family, later changed to an apostolic Pentecostal one at age 5. When I turned 16 I attended a different “born again” Pentecostal and this changed my view or my interest in the type of church I wanted to attend. And so I became a religion rebel.
I then started to look at other churches where I could fit it and that happened as I grew older.
I started studying and reading a lot of theory on psychology, the universe and religion. I found myself conflicted as to what it means to be a christian and in as much as people say read your bible and pray, the more my inner conflict is getting deeper and deeper. What makes it worse is the way the bible was introduced to the African nations, i.e. colonization and slavery, I find myself conflicted as to what to believe in.
The way I have believed in God then and now and the questions I now have, this is sending me over the cliff.